About the Book

“This is one of the most amazing books I have read along the topic of spiritual growth. The knowledge you will gain from reading this book is mind-blowing! “ ~ Belle Salisbury, Bellesprit Magazine

About the Book: “I Am the Lotus, Not the Muddy Pond”

I am the Lotus by Mandy PetersonI Am the Lotus, Not the Muddy Pond: Achieving Peace Through Non-Conformity is a response to what author Mandy Peterson sees as a philosophical “split” that occurring within the mind and intentions of those who have been part of the New Age movement for the past two decades. Providing numerous examples, she shows us the difficulties that arise when individuals pursue ascension and higher consciousness while being encouraged to remain locked in an unconscious mind-set of materialism that fosters anxiety, paranoia and fear, and which negatively impacts our individual and collective health, happiness and overall well-being.

Throughout the book, Mandy explores the collective mind that has programmed us to think and believe things as we do. She shows how focusing too much on positives versus negatives can often influence us to reject our “darker” emotional side, and how this creates a lost sense of Self, and feelings of disconnection and unworthiness. Boldly challenging pop-culture ideas about the Law of Attraction, she shows how to understand more deeply what we are really manifesting in our lives, and turn it all around so we can create balance, inner peace and love—at a personal and planetary level.

I Am the Lotus, Not the Muddy Pond: Achieving Peace Through Non-Conformity reveals how to un-weave our unconscious, self-destructive thought patterns, so we can rise above the “Muddy Pond” of conditioned beliefs and social conformity, and step into our true, unique and perhaps even radical essence—“The Lotus”.

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The book is a singular, but what was inside the book was a wealth of knowledge beyond measure. If you haven’t read this book; buy it, read it, and read it again. It’s available for your kindle too! This book took me on a journey from a budding lotus flower to a fully bloomed beauty. The author teaches how to become a person who can achieve a wholeness with the universe. We are all beautiful lights of energy and we can spread our energy all around us. There is no need to conform to the world and the thoughts of society as a while. There is peace in nonconformity and this book teaches how to grasp and spread the peace.”  ~ Jennifer Johnson, thegoodspark.com
“This is one of the most amazing books I have read along the topic of spiritual growth. The knowledge you will gain from reading this book is mind-blowing! Many parts of this book will become ‘ah ha’ moments for you as you awaken to the truth and realities of our existence on this earth. Mandy puts into words what many have been feeling yet, didn’t know how to express…We are at a place at this time in our existence that, as you read each chapter, you will find it speaks directly to your higher self as an affirmation to its truth. You will find that this is a book to be read, and re-read again and again as we grow along our spiritual development.” ~ Belle Salisbury, Bellesprit Magazine
It is one of the best books I have read thus far in my entire life. Because it is helping me realize my true nature and what I need to do to materialize real abundance.  Of course, life is not about reading books for knowledge, life experiences teach us far more. But with the reflective tones of Mandy Peterson’s book, I feel sure you will engage more fluidly with understanding your/our true nature and what that will me to your/our decisions making with regards particularly; abundance.” ~ Peaceful Warrior, peacefulwarrior.eu ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….  ……………………..

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While searching for a perfect title for this book, a fellow psychic wrote me an e-mail that stated: “Hi Mandy! How have you been doing? You keep coming to me in meditations, bringing lotus flowers. I also keep seeing a book. Have you been writing lately or thinking of it? The angels want you to write a lot.”

At the time of receiving this e-mail, I already had eight chapters written in rough form.

Looking up the symbolism of the lotus flower, what I came across was a quote from the Lalitavistara, a sacred text of the life of Buddha by Dhrarmaraksha (308 AD). It seemed to offer an interesting analogy. It states:

The spirit of the best of men is spotless, like the new lotus in the muddy water which does not adhere to it.

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Philosophical Splitting – A New Age Dilemma

Prior to 2010, I had experienced various uncomfortable feelings and inner voices that told me something was not quite right concerning my spiritual beliefs and practices. However, I did not at the time realize that what was creating most of the conflict was my attempt to go along with abundance-focused philosophies (as prescribed by the leading spiritual gurus within the new age community), while simultaneously seeking to embrace other new age ideals such as nonduality and oneness. In fact, I did not recognize that my spiritual and material goals expressed opposite agendas. I also did not take the time to notice that while many new age philosophies teach us that our spirit takes precedence concerning what we truly are, we are simultaneously taught a second message. What we often end up attempting to implement are both the original ideal and the obstacle toward realizing it.

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Awakening to The Dream of Life

I presume that most new-agers readily accept as truth the notion that life is in many ways an illusion. For me, I now see life much like a dream; one which we do have free will and can dream whatever our hearts desire. However, our heart’s desires can reflect both conscious and subconscious levels of desire, will, thought, and emotion. As a result, we may not always be lucid concerning the choices we make or why we make them.

As most healers recognize, sometimes we may not always understand what is going on within our hearts. We may even subconsciously desire what is perhaps not in our own best interest, the world’s best interest, or the interest of advancing our self-awareness. Sometimes, we even end up consciously or subconsciously desiring what would create more pain or suffering for either ourselves or others. In fact, sometimes we may gain something out of our suffering…

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The Law of Attraction – Its Real Secret

When people started hearing, teaching, and promoting some of these concepts of attraction and manifestation, they were twisted the same way some of our healing modalities were. Thus, such metaphysical concepts came to be primarily used to serve a dysfunctional world. Why did this happen? Understandably, it happened because of the philosophical split, because of the ego, and because of our need to serve our base wants, needs, fears, and various desires.

Men who had not fully awakened became teachers of metaphysical concepts. They taught such concepts from a state of not fully knowing their lotus Self. Because they did not fully know their lotus Self, they were unable to teach others how to fill an inner void with anything other than aspects of the muddy pond.

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The Various Levels of Consciousness & Thought

In the last chapter, I discussed the Law of Attraction in a very personal sense as it relates to dreaming the personal dream of life. I had actually been planning to write a book a few years ago about my feeling that the prevailing understanding of the Law of Attraction is incomplete. I am glad that I waited, because I had not yet grasped that there existed a whole other dimension of thought and manifestation that I had never before considered.

It was not until I was asked to provide a world reading for a 2011 New Year’s Eve radio show that an alternative way to view our abundance driven lifestyles unexpectedly revealed itself. And, I refrained from voicing on the radio what I saw, needing time to process it all. This was in large part due to the fact that the main message of the reading seemed to challenge the rationality of some of our popular abundance centered philosophies.

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Functioning in a Dysfunctional World

  • What if we are not meant to use various healing modalities for the purpose of a quick fix?
  • What if we are not meant to persevere, cope and conform to the ‘normal’ ways of the world?
  • What does it even mean to be normal or even sane within such a world?

Possibly, we can observe that some of the prevailing issues of our world do not necessarily point to an imbalance within ourselves as individuals. By exhibiting signs of stress and imbalance, perhaps we are just having a normal reaction to a world mind-set that is insane. The world, after all, has become a place where an increasing body of individuals can only cope by succumbing to various addictions, healing efforts, and reliance on psychiatric medications. Observing this, we may wish to ask ourselves at what point will the world become sufficiently intolerable that we will become brave enough to examine what is driving our societal wants, fears, and definitions, i.e. such as of success and failure?

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Illuminati Conspiracies – As Without, So Within

I did not really know anything about conspiracies until 2009 when I began dating a man who was interested in certain types of documentaries. It was a real revelation. What I learned the most was that while various documentaries seem to blame an outside force for all of the world’s problems, I saw things a bit differently. In essence, I saw a bigger picture of ‘as without, so within’ (see glossary). I even felt a bit confused that others were not seeing it as well.

Some of the documentaries—which I won’t go into detail about all of them—were about government and banking conspiracies, the dangers of fracking, the problem of nuclear waste, the suppression of spiritual truth, GMOs (genetically modified organisms), the end of the world, polar shifts, etc. Then one day, while visiting a health food store that I frequented, I was unable to find certain products that I used to purchase. The store clerk asked me, “Have you heard of Codex Alimentarius?”

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Do We Serve the Lotus or Do We Serve the Pond?

Right now, what many of us are trying to do is integrate our spiritual life into our material life. One of my guides calls this backward integration. We can observe what is ‘backward’ in our spiritual understanding by examining the fruits. The world we see is out of balance and becoming more so, regardless of the thousands of people focusing more on spirituality. We try to own the earth and to find ourselves and our worth through what we feel we own. Why? It is because of backward integration, i.e., the attempt to integrate our spiritual ideals into our material desires and lifestyles, through the false belief that we will find our salvation through what we can manifest within the material world.

What is forward integration? According to the same guide, the correct path to integration is the integration of our lesser material life into our fuller spiritual reality. Thus, our ‘salvation’ comes through recognizing what we are in spirit and what we inherit as sons of God…

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True Abundance – Finding Our Innate ‘Enoughness’

Life is a mirror, and as the saying goes, “As without, so within.” This being true, the excess, pollution, and depletion scenarios manifested in our own lives and toward nature are not accidental. Instead, they are symbols we are dreaming that can be decoded to help us find a better path—one that leads us away from the suffering we incur through our illusions and toward Truth.

The symbols of the world take their original form within predominant streams of collective consciousness that feed on creating or recreating scenarios. As I have said many times, if we can look at the world, it will tell a story. The story I am told seems to be a sad rather than happy story. I am not trying to be negative here. I know this story is not the truth of who we are, nor does it represent our beautiful potential. However, in this story, mankind never feels quite whole or enough. He is forever striving to buy enough, invent enough, implement enough, do enough, be enough, and more.

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The Non-Duality of Our Emotions & Experiences

When we create a duality out of our emotions and experiences, and when we as a result feel tension, fear, or aversion, there is a natural movement away from unconditional love. We also sometimes end up creating more of what we are trying to run away from. Emotions are energy, after all. Just because we cut them off from our awareness, does not mean they are not still floating around.

This, again, brings us back to the discussion of the Law of Attraction. Remember, the Law of Attraction offers us a path toward love, and toward integrating ourselves into wholeness. It uncovers all parts of our soul that we are trying to hide from our consciousness. The Law of Attraction is a loving mirror which can be used to reveal to us all that we love or what is in need of our love or attention. How does it achieve this? Via our attracting to us what we would polarize, desire, suppress or run away from.

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The Lucid Dreamer Dreams of Peace and Love

Earth feng shui is a name I gave to a technique for using the earth as a dreamscape to:

  •  see what we are creating
  • see how our energy is moving
  • see how to more successfully and intentionally bring peace and love into our world

This process involves using our favorite metaphysical principles of attraction and co-creation in a holistic, unified way. As I have discussed in other chapters, this process requires stepping outside of our habitual and conditioned pattern of striving toward personal pursuits in order to realize there is a bigger world picture that represents a part of who and what we are, as well as what we think and do.

To use earth feng shui, it helps if we can begin to see patterns of energy…

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Releasing the Need for Dreaming and Creating a New Mantra for Life

This is a chapter I wanted to include because I do recognize there is a stage beyond seeing and understanding the dream we are creating. This stage arises when we simply do not need to see the dream anymore, nor feed any illusion. We may have no need to create a story, be it one of conquest, one of disappointment, or one of anything else. Because we do not need the dream anymore, we likewise do not need the dream dictionary and all of the consciousness of labels and definitions (including labels and definitions of various states of ‘dis-ease’) that we tend to collectively and unconsciously take on, believe in and live by. There is no need for earth feng shui anymore either, because we have learned enough about our illusions to know why and how they didn’t serve us in the end. Our story at this stage is merely of being the lotus, living in the now, and being One with All That Is.

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